Confession Project Progress

I've decided on my confession, but I'm a little worried because my parents read this blog and I don't want to insult them or hurt their feelings in any way. My confession revolves around my family and some personal issues, which I'm not sure my parents want the rest of the internet world or my art class to know about. But as a disclaimer, I love love love my immediate family to pieces and the following entry has nothing negative to say about them.

I am only close to my extended family out of obligation. I probably would not talk to them unless forced/coerced.

It sounds harsh and insensitive, but it's true. I don't call up my older half siblings to chat unless it's Christmas, during which they ask about school, I ask about their kids/job and that's that. I rarely visit my grandma unless my mother drags me. I don't know why I am so reluctant to interact with the people who are linked to me by blood. Maybe it's because of the physical distance between my dad's side or the age gap that makes it hard for me to not feel awkward. Maybe it's my mom's family's tendency to get a little too drunk at parties or their track record with jail time and young pregnancy. Desiree suggested that maybe what I'm putting out reflects how much I'm receiving. Maybe if my extended family made more of an effort to get to know me or see me I would feel less estranged.

I've come up with a performance piece that will showcase these feelings of awkwardness/being forced much better than my original family tree idea. I'm not quite sure how to execute it because I'll need to find a woman and man to pose as my parents and leave me voicemails (assuming my own parents feel too uncomfortable or sad doing so themselves) and then find a way to play them loud enough for the class to hear. I don't think I'll be as embarrassed actually performing as I will telling my parents about this, because I know that their families are important to them and I don't want to make them feel like they've done something wrong. But I also don't know any adults down here in SB that have voices convincing enough. So I guess what I'm hoping is that once you read this, mom and dad, you'll call me and ask me what's up so I can try to not awkwardly tell you my plan...